hello friends. enemies. comrades.
quick life update: I AM GOING MENTAL.
3 jobs - 2 classes - my plethora of volunteer commitments. not sure if i will last until december.
don't tell my bosses . . .
things are holding steady for now. the frustrating part today is that i seem to stress out because I KNOW that I will be stressed out in October. I am pre-stressing in anticipation of coming stress. isn't that stupid? right now i am holding steady and doing pretty well.
old patterns creeping in. not particularly healthy ones.
the process of growing and learning and changing seems so ridiculous to me sometimes. never-ending! always struggling in some form or another, wrestling with my angels or demons or myself. finding the right balance of self-love and motivation for self-betterment is sometimes tricky, especially when life seems so necessarily busy.
once i had thought i figured out the point of life. now i can't even REMEMBER what I thought it was - it was either so ridiculous or so elusive that I can't really recall it.
but i am sure it has something to do with the internet.